I’m fedup wit dis whorl!
'The Room' - Tommy Wiseau
So here’s a song that just means the world to me. The artist, Rich Mullins, is one of my heroes, and has a profound impact on my spirituality. You see, I can’t stand CCM (contemporary christian music) with the sole exception of Rich Mullins. But that’s because he was the one exception when it came to CCM. this is a man who lived the last few years of his life on a Navajo reservation because he was “tired of a white, evangelical perspective on God” and could “maybe find Jesus better amongst the pagans, than white middle-class Americans” and while most CCM artist of the 80s and 90s were making sugarcoated, feel good, “everything is perfect and nothing bad ever happens” music; he was making art with real emotion in it. This song in particular is one of the deepest, saddest, honest, and emotional songs I’ve ever heard. A little background on it: He was single most of his later adult life (before he was killed in a car accident at 41) he was in a relationship for several years with the love of his life, but after she broke it off, he was never in a serious relationship again. He was very private about it, and his love life in general (to the point that rumors started that he was gay) but he did make these two statements about her years later: “I have no interest in anybody else, and she is married to someone else so that’s the way it goes and I don’t mind that. Right now I cannot imagine that life could be happier married than it is single so I’m not in a panic about getting married. And I think, you know, maybe God wanted me to be celibate and the way that he accomplished that was to break my heart. So that’s the way it goes.” And and later he said “I would always be frustrated with all those relationships even when I was engaged. I had a ten year thing with this girl and I would often wonder why, even in those most intimate moments of our relationship, I would still feel really lonely. And it was just a few years ago that I finally realized that friendship is not a remedy for loneliness. Loneliness is a part of our experience and if we are looking for relief from loneliness in friendship, we are only going to frustrate the friendship. Friendship, camaraderie, intimacy, all those things, and loneliness live together in the same experience”
This song is one of only a few that he wrote, that hint at these feelings. And it’s incredibly touching, and I think everybody’s felt this way at one point or another, and this song means a lot to me, and I’m so glad he wrote it before he left us. Enjoy.
And it’s that easy.